Nightmares and Daydreams

Background info: I have a rose plant growing in my back yard. But for some reason it keeps dying. It very rarely gets to bloom. I want to buy some new soil for it and nutrients but I don’t have the money at this time. I always feel sad when I watch it die so quickly. I also own two empty pots I’ve been thinking of putting it in.

Dream: I can’t remember the beginning of the dream. It was entirely different to this one:
I was in my backyard, the dream was being viewed from my eyes so I only saw my hands. They were desperately trying to save my flowers. I dug a hole in the ground and started pouring that soil into an empty pot.
For a moment I was asleep in my own dream. I was conscious of the fact that I was dreaming. Instead of seeing what I was doing I could feel my hands grabbing soil and shoving it in the pot hurriedly. As if I was sleep walking.
I placed my rose plant in the pot and was happy when I was finished. I had done everything I can to save it and now I just had to wait.

This is all I remember.

Dream:
I was having sex with James Franco.
That is all.

Background info: Noah is a guy I dated for a short period of time. Do I still have romantic feelings for him? no. But he did get me pregnant. No I didn’t have the kid. But how do you expect me to feel about him with everything that has happened?

Dream:
I was at a party (although it was more of a get together) at a girls house. I think her name was Alexa (I don’t know an Alexa in real life). The house was huge. It had everything you could imagine. Everyone was smoking pot and drinking. There wasn’t that many of us. Suddenly we see cop lights outside our window. Everyone freaks.
I run to my car and Noah is with me. I get into my car and I realize that I have to back up. I’m terrible at reversing straight. In real life AND in my dream.
My car was parked next to the enourmous pool that Alexa had. I begin to reverse and go straight into the pool! I am so unbeliveably heartbroken and freaking out because of my car. It was like the titanic happened except I was worried about the car not my life. I was in a pool. 
Somehow I end up getting my car out of the pool in that same instance. Like I had gotten 90% of it wet and then immediately taken it out. I’m crying because I no longer have a car and we’re all about to get sent to jail.
Noah tells me to calm down. That the car is totally fixable. He gets to work on it. I don’t remember exactly what he did but it involved grease. My car is fixed. We have to escape the cops (Clearly time isn’t a problem in this dream) and we drive away from the house into an open field.
In the field there are a bunch of women walking. They are all fortune tellers and each one of them is mumbling about the future as they watch me and Noah drive anway in my car. (I can’t remember what any of them said)
We did not get caught by the police.

And here’s where I wake up.

Background info: This is an old dream that I haven’t posted because I wasn’t sure whether or not I wanted to remember it.
I dated a guy named Noah for a few months. He got me pregnant. I had gone to a party and drank booze and smoked a cigarette. It was after the cigarette that I knew I was pregnant because I had never felt so nauseus in my life. I was worried about the kid inside me…although I knew what my decison was already. 
I had an abortion. Before I had the abortion I had the same dream over and over again.

Dream:
I’m inside what looks like my home. I’m kneeling on one knee and my hands are softly gripping the arms of a boy. A boy who I had to get down on one knee in order to see his face. We were talking. He was telling me about his day. He looked so much like Noah. I knew him so well. He was my son… He might have looked like his father but he had my personality. He smiled and laughed like I did and questioned the world the same way I did.
It was a boy. I knew it was a boy.

p.s those of you who are following me. Remember this dream: http://saritasdreams.tumblr.com/post/16650914912/pregnant
take a look at the date. Doesn’t it sound A LOT like my background info? premoniton much?

Dream:
I discovered two birds in my room. One was a parakeet and the other a cockatiel. I was sure that the cockatiel was the same bird I had when I was little. It couldn’t fly and the parakeet never attempted to. At one point I realized that they didn’t have any food.
Now here’s where it gets freaky: I was suddenly covered in thousands of tiny little bugs. They were just round things with legs. I didn’t know how to get them off me. I remember being able to communicate with the parakeet. It told me the cockatiel would have to get them off me.
I don’t remember how but I somehow managed to get the bird to eat away all the bugs.
Dream changes:
Keonne (in real life he is a guy who moved to Chicago and we were always attracted to each other) is back in town. He doesn’t remember me to well. He asks me what my name is again but I remember him perfectly. Next thing I know we’re making out. His hand is up my back.

Then I wake up to dad asking me if I’m still alive through my door.

Before I tell you about my dream you need to know that I went to a psychic. She told me I had a lot of negative energy that I needed to get rid of. Here is my dream:

I went inside the psychics “store” and there was a bunch of little kids running around. I think the oldest was about 15. I saw my psychic (Sophie) and I sat down in front of her. She didn’t pay attention to any of the kids running around. It’s as if they weren’t even there. 
“How did you know that I had negative energy?” I asked her.
“My assistant told me”
My mind went back to the first time we met. In my memory there was a woman who was sitting at a desk facing the wall. She had her back towards us. She was wearing a white shirt. I couldn’t see her face. I don’t believe she even had one…
In my memory the assistant turned toward Sophie somehow letting her know what I had. Then that’s when Sophie told me.
I was sitting in front of Sophie unaware of the assistant. But for some reason looking back on it I saw her now.
Why hadn’t I seen her in my memory until Sophie mentioned her?

This is all I remember.

Dream:
I could time travel.
I time traveled into the year 3044 I believe. Everything looked pretty much the same except for the cars. Their cars didn’t have wheels and were bright colors. Very futuristic (haha).I had walked into a party full of teenagers and it was new years eve. I wasn’t sure what the year was so I asked, “Happy New year it’s going to be…?” and a guy sitting on the floor with his friends answered me “3045!” I was on the phone with my friend Noah the entire time who was back in the year 2012. Of course that doesn’t make any sense. I was telling him all about the future over the phone and as I walked through the front lawn of the house party I saw a girl and my eyes lit up
“Did they legalize marijuana yet?” The girl looked at me and answered “No not yet they’ll be deciding that this year.” Damn.
I told all of this to Noah over the phone.
The dream changes:
My father decides to go away for a weekend and I take this opportunity to sneak off to Tallahassee to visit my friends. However I’m paranoid the entire time because he might call me and I’ll have to lie to him. I went to Tallahassee and only got to see Drew at his place. Which was strange because Drew and I were never really friends. I knew all my other friends where busy doing film school work so I decided to go home a day early. It was a good thing too because my dad had also gotten home a day early. I got away with it but I still hadn’t gotten to see my friends.
Back to the dream of time travel:
I knew I had the power to time travel. I would walk around school with this knowledge and there were days where some kids had court. They would have to stand in front of a judge and hope they aren’t sentenced to jail. Who was our lawyer? Obama. He was like the principal of the school and the school had to fool the judge into thinking we were all innocent. I would just watch. There was an opposing team because for some reason we would mess up and it wasn’t our fault. We did everything according to plan meaning someone was messing with us. I wish I could remember the hearing better but a girl was accused of something and she got away with it. My father said “she doesn’t look like a girl who smokes marijuana”  Which is what she had gotten away with. This irritated me because this girl smoked more than all of us put together.
It was time for class, I had about an hour to get there and for some reason I was wearing heels. Meaning I had better start walking because it would take me forever. I took baby steps and on my way ran into a teacher. I fell on the stairs and got sleepy while she was in front of me speaking to me. I don’t remember what she was saying except that there was a floating pen right next to her. “You can levitate” I mumble. She isn’t taken aback by her ability however she does put the pen away.
I tell her I can time travel. I don’t remember her reaction; just her walking away. At some point I call a friend and tell him that our teacher can make things levitate. He already knows this and tells me if I met “something” (I cant remember what it is, it could have been the teachers pet) but I remember dreaming of this black creature with a face. Scary. Whatever it is I hadn’t met it and didn’t want to.

Then my alarm woke me up. Time for work. 

Dream: 
I was in Tallahassee again or at least I think I was. There was a huge house but it wasn’t fancy it was very old fashioned. Like a seriously nice cabin. Like a cabin on steroids. Sydney was there along with many people. Everyone was in different rooms talking and mingling. Then I heard from the owner of the house that she was renting it out to six people. I went over to Sydney and Chris who were giggling and messing around with one another. I think they were going out in my dream but in real life they don’t even know each other.
I tell them that the house is available for rent and I’m down to be their roommate if they are. They take a while to think about it and during that time I realize I’ve changed my mind. This is because I really liked Chris and I don’t think I could live with him if I couldn’t have him especially if he belonged to a friend of mine.
I went over to tell them I didn’t want to live with them but before I could they told me they wanted to be my roommates. Somehow I explained to them that it wasn’t a good idea when all of a sudden the dream changed.
I was in a bar but this bar had many rooms with many things to do such as playing pool. It was dark and there was music playing. I had walked in with three people. One of them was Chris but I don’t know who the other two were. This is a completely new dream. Everything about the previous one has been forgotten.
Suddenly Chris takes my hands and we begin to dance. We don’t stop dancing. It’s wonderful, we’re dancing through every room and never stopping. Just us.
At one point he mentions something about “his girl” of course that’s the only part I hear because it hurts my heart when I realize he’s taken. We continued to dance, at one point he had to use the restroom and I patiently waited for him. We were there until the place closed down. Never leaving each others side.

This is all I remember. 
In real life Chris is my neighbor. We have a strange relationship, not really friends but somehow we know we care about one another. I don’t see/talk to him often and I have no idea if he has a girlfriend. 

Dream:
I was at a school. A school for people who are depressed. It was very open, there was a little patio with palm trees all around. I remember making a few friends there and we would cry about everything. One of my friends left and after crying about it we found out she left to live a better life. She moved on from the miserable place we were in to become a nurse. The place was a school so I had to go to an office to choose my classes. I sat down with my laptop in one hand and the school councelor sitting beside me. He took my laptop and upgraded many things to it. For some reason I told him I wanted to get my hair on my body removed by doing the laser hair removal. He told me he knew exactly where to find the person to do it. He continued typing on my computer and told me to go to another room where the person who would be removing my hair would be waiting for me.
I obey his orders and find myself sitting on a table with a bed sheet covering me. A guy walks in. I’m not immediately attracted to him until he begins to talk. He makes jokes while he sets up his things. He begins with my legs putting cream on them and takes out a little device thats going to remove my hair.
“will it hurt?”
“Yea”
He begins to apply it to my skin but instead of getting hurt I was getting tickled. He stopped at my legs and put his things back saying we had to wait a while until we could do it again. I recall that the device isn’t a laser hair removal.
“Doesn’t it grow back in twenty days?”
He had removed my hair but not forever and I knew this.
“Not the second time around it wont.”
For some reason I end up hanging out with him. We get in his car and drive North to where I’ve never been before. (I have my clothes back on btw) I think we went to a park and I had introduced myself as Sara to someone. When we left he brought me back to his house.
His friend came over and I introduced myself as Sarita. I could tell this confused my friend. I went inside the house to find his sister who had an amputated leg, at the end of that leg was half a bowling ball. As if she had cut a hollow bowling ball in half and placed half of it at the end of her amputated leg.
I hear his mother but I don’t see her. She mentions the baby she lost and I look around to find an empty crib. This makes me sad. I hear my friend talking to his mom and then murmur my name.
“Sarita…” I smile. He knows that’s what I liked to be called.
I look around to see stairs that go up and down. (As if one’s to a basement and the other to the second floor)
My friend is making me feel completely comfortable, I begin to like him more and more. I’m not in love with him or anything but he’s great to be around.
He suddenly becomes quite handsome. The moment I saw him I noticed his green (or blue) eyes. I was falling for his charm and he had let me into his world.
I begin to explore the house (or apartment? I don’t even know anymore) while he starts to set up the equipment to continue removing my hair permanently. It then occurs to me that in order for him to finish I have to be naked. The thought of it makes me blush and thoughts of us having sex creep into my mind. I decide that I don’t mind at all if that happens.
The house has huge rooms with wooden floors. The rooms are empty. I turn to find myself shocked.
There is a wall across the two rooms and on that wall is a staircase. It isn’t going up or down it’s going through the wall. At the end of it I could see the opening to another room. But how in the world are you suppose to walk a flat staircase? I’m about to make my attempt when suddenly.

I wake up. To my father knocking at the door. “Wake up you have to go to work”