Nightmares and Daydreams

Background info: This is an old dream that I haven’t posted because I wasn’t sure whether or not I wanted to remember it.
I dated a guy named Noah for a few months. He got me pregnant. I had gone to a party and drank booze and smoked a cigarette. It was after the cigarette that I knew I was pregnant because I had never felt so nauseus in my life. I was worried about the kid inside me…although I knew what my decison was already. 
I had an abortion. Before I had the abortion I had the same dream over and over again.

Dream:
I’m inside what looks like my home. I’m kneeling on one knee and my hands are softly gripping the arms of a boy. A boy who I had to get down on one knee in order to see his face. We were talking. He was telling me about his day. He looked so much like Noah. I knew him so well. He was my son… He might have looked like his father but he had my personality. He smiled and laughed like I did and questioned the world the same way I did.
It was a boy. I knew it was a boy.

p.s those of you who are following me. Remember this dream: http://saritasdreams.tumblr.com/post/16650914912/pregnant
take a look at the date. Doesn’t it sound A LOT like my background info? premoniton much?

I had a dream that an alien came to Earth and changed it’s physical appearance to my mom. I knew it wasn’t my mom so I demanded the alien to tell me where my real mom was. The alien actually took form of my mom pregnant (no she is not pregnant in real life). The alien wouldn’t tell me where she was so I started to hit it with everything I had; even it’s pregnant stomach (whether the alien was really pregnant or not I didn’t know). This is all I remember.

Dream: I think I was throwing a party. Everyone was dancing and there was this guy who I knew liked me. The thing is he looked like a little kid so I payed no attention to him. I danced and flirted with other guys. I recognized someone from my high school and ended up giving him a long hug. The entire time the little kid was on my mind. I knew he wasn’t as young as he looked but its still bothered me.
At one point I wanted to sit down and there was a dining room table pressed up against the wall. I had a conversation with my roommates friend about how we couldn’t sit on the chairs against the wall because otherwise we wouldn’t be able to get out.
The kid enters the room and at this point I get a closer look at him. I’m suddenly filled with shock because when I look at his face not only do I see his true age (which is the same as mine) but how unbelievably good looking he is. The last thing I remember is that is that moment I fell in love with him.

Dream:
I am a little girl again sitting at the edge of a small lake with what feels like a hundred other little kids around me. I find something flat on the ground and decide to make a raft carrying a bunch of little things including candy. I think the candy is peanut M&M’s. Somehow I want to share this candy with the girl next to me so I push the raft out into the lake and it goes around in one big circle back to me and the girl. The candy is now soaking wet but we still eat it.
I get up, I think I’m at a summer camp, and as I walk away from the lake I see a snake on the ground. A large one, but it isn’t moving so I’m not sure if it’s dead.
This is all I remember. 

Dream: I was at school and I had just gotten out of class. I go into a class that isn’t mine knowing that you’re in it. I lay down and begin to fall asleep. You wake me up by stroking the back of my neck with your nose. I turn around with my eyes still closed knowing it’s you and then we’re having sex (it was really good sex). When I open my eyes I see your face clear as day. Your blue eyes staring back at me. I am shocked that this is happening with you. When it’s over you say something like “where can we do this again” I smile and say “we’re just going to have to find places to do it in the school”. The teacher was upset. 
I go to a courtyard and my dad is next to me. He knows what happened because the teacher called him and told him. I’m waiting for a lecture but I don’t think I get one, all I can think about is you.
There’s another class coming up with a bathroom in it. I’m early so I sit down in the floor of the bathroom and begin to fall asleep again. A guy comes up to me asking me what I’m doing. I look at him and say “oh I’m in the guys bathroom aren’t I?” He nods and tells me the girls bathroom is on the other side. I was hoping to run into you the entire time. I go over to the girls bathroom.

This is all I remember. 

Dream: I had gotten another Tattoo out of impulse. (I have one on my shoulder in real life) This tattoo was a giant rectangle going through my chest and my stomach. There were lines on the side but at the top and bottom instead of lines it was a coiled snake. It was such an ugly tattoo. I freaked out. I remembered that you could get tattoos removed at this tattoo shop and the moment I had the tattoo done I was with my roommate and I begged her to take me to get it removed. I couldn’t stand to look at it, I would see the snake and it took everything in me not to cry.
I got to the shop on the bus for some reason, and it was an animal farm. That tattoo store was shut down. I was stuck with it for life.

Then I wake up. I look down, so thankful for it to be a dream. I don’t regret my first tattoo at all. But I wont be getting another any time soon. 

Dream: I had told you everything I felt about you. I confessed the feelings of love I had for you since high school. We were in your car driving through my neighborhood back at my parents house and we sat on a field as I was still telling you how much I feel for you. You smiled the entire time and then began to kiss me as I finished. I realized that this wasn’t really happening which then made me wake up.

In reality you have no idea I exist.